Last night was one of the most fun nights I had this semester.

I watched Elbi Pie: Rufo vs Raffles and even got to witness the CAS lantern lighting event. The lantern lighting event was magical, and my heart ached as I remembered my favorite Disney scene. I felt lucky as I watched the lanterns fly up and slowly disappear into the night, like stars making their way to the vast expanse of the universe. It was painfully beautiful and I felt as if I have something missing within me. Last night was a cold night.

Watching the Elbi Pie for the first time and possibly the last time (hopefully) in my university life, I wonder how much I have missed when I decided not to watch the past years’ Elbi Pie shows. They said that the last one was literally a monologue, but several years ago, the shows were really extreme (boys and girls kissing, boys and boys kissing, and girls and girls kissing. Read: kissing everywhere). Anyway, last night’s show was worth my money. I realized a lot of things, and my number one discovery is: WYRE UNDERGROUND GUYS ARE REALLY HOT. Maybe it’s the costume, maybe they really are cute, but the confidence they ooze out when they dance… just makes my ovaries explode.(@__@ ) What I wouldn’t give/do just to have one for myself… Hehe.♥

So that’s Realization#1. Realization#2 has something to do with the final line of the show, asking the readers to think over which they are: the one who is hurt by love, or the one who hurts others? Admittedly, I’m the latter. The theater actress who plays Ruffles, who plays the “hurter,” even said the line I strongly agree with: “The opposite of love isn’t hate, it’s indifference.” Yes, I may have been hurt a lot, but I guess the pain I caused others doesn’t even compare. I had people who loved me and I didn’t love back, and then there’s this guy who loved me and I did love back, but that’s what it was: it’s did. Past tense. Not in my present, and not in my future. Which brings me again to the question I asked several years’ back: Am I totally devoid of emotion? It’s not I’m totally avoiding love, I’m searching for it desperately, and I cringe at the thought that maybe I’d die alone. I’m a superficial bitch and I can’t help it: appearance does matter a lot to me. I’d hang anyone by the neck who says otherwise, because it’s exactly the first thing on my list whenever I categorize people into my friend and friend-but-I’m-hoping zones. So maybe, I think of myself too highly to think that I deserve someone so good looking, but I think that has nothing to do with my self perception since I read too much shoujo manga—almost every manga fan knows that shoujo manga are not exactly good for lowering expectations. I myself am starting to realize that I may have let one fish go too soon. I regret not giving him a chance, but I try not to think a lot about it. Say what? Regret is a useless emotion.  

Realization#3 is “walang malaking aparador sa maliit na kwarto!” (There’s no large cabinet in a small room!) Funny shit. The best part of the show is Sir harassing the good looking guys from the audience.

To somewhat buffer that tedious post I just wrote, I have a new goal in life:

To search for one crush from every University of the Philippines Los Baños engineering organization. So there are 11 CEAT organizations, right? Before my birthday, which is on November 30 by the way, I should have 11 crushes. I already have crushes from the UPLB SChemes, IESO and ERG, so I only need to search for 8 more. I am strangely excited about this goal. He-he.♥

Wish me luck!

ENGSOC 2011 CHEERING

We won second place in the Engineering Meet cheerdance competition out of 11 competing Engineering organizations!♥ Composing a proper blog entry about it, seeing that my whole month was taken by our practices. For now, please do watch!:3 Sometimes I’m in the front, heh heh heh. There’s this part where one could see me making a mistake. orz

(1st: UPCES; 3nd: ERG)

I almost forgot to make a post about this!D: I just remembered because I was going to edit a picture in Photoshop, thus noticing the folder where I stored my drafts. I was one of the tasked to make a T-shirt design for a fundraising activity in our organization. The shirt’s target consumers are U.P. students, so being the forever child I am, I decided to make it based on the movie UP. Here’s the basic design:

The balloon colors were different in my first draft which kind of reeked of magenta:

I made it more colorful in order to be, let’s say… more faithful to the movie UP. I deemed it safe to post it here in Tumblr since my design was rejected. It wasn’t really harshly rejected, because even I was against this design. Let’s say you’re a guy. You won’t buy it, right? I know that this design won’t be feasible for sale (adding in the expenses of having that many colors to print) yet I still finished it. Oh, the chibi guy isn’t initially supposed to be there, it was supposed to be the Oblation,but it sucks, tbh. So I just drew this guy who looked like Pucca. WAHAHAHA. However, even tho it’s not going to be up for sale, which is good since it looks like Disney and Pixar don’t need to sue me, what do you think of the concept and design?:) 

No, I am not emo. My older sister wanted me to play sleep-inducing songs.:| Anyway, I think songs like these are perfect for this cold weather.:3 Don’t ask me why, just believe me.:]

I haven’t blogged since forever. Thankfully this week, consisting of the days before the Christmas vacation started, had been ultimately fun thus totally making my internet inactivity worth it.♥ This week consisted of cancelled classes, late morning call times, Christmas tree and Santa pictorials (Twice! One wholesome and one which is… uh… not that wholesome), the ChEsmas Party, the batch ‘07 presentation (I played Basha in One More Chance),  open tambayans (we went to one on Tuesday and three on Wednesday), partying (went to Java Ave and had my first experience of dancing with people I do not know) and malling (with Shaina).:”> A pretty fulfilling week, if I must say. Here are some pictures I randomly grabbed:

Too bad Maycee still hasn’t uploaded some of the pics yet.:”< I’m highly anticipating them… for a reason only we know.;) Maybe I’ll post them on some other day.

A super condensed post is condensed. Honestly, I wasn’t planning to blog about this week since I already have a private journal, but I am so damned bored. I’m thinking of picking up Panty and Stocking with Garterbelt right this moment just because of this feeling of… abandonment. LOL. I did change a lot. Before, I was perfectly content being online for days, even without chatting with the people I know. Lately, it’s as if I’m going to go crazy without actual communication. FaceBook is so dull lately and I keep on thinking: “where the hell are the people?” Getting to read every single news on the News Feed does not exactly spell good news for my well being. I just said the word “news” thrice.

Since this post is so random, I might as well add that I’m such a cheapskate. I swear I’m driving my mom nuts because I complain and self-pity too much. So annoyed that she gave me some Christmas shopping money. Yey! Anyway, that’s the reason why Sha and I went to the mall. But since I am a person who does not know how to let go of money, I only got to spend a little beyond a thousand pesos. Sha even spent more than me, lol. MY MOM IS NOT PLEASED. I’m sorry, k? I’ll do better next time.(;___; ) But eeeeeh, I didn’t find a pair of shoes that I like. Maybe I should have bought that Revlon moisture lipstick already.:|

I only got to buy a bag (Sha and I bought the same style with different colors. WTF. FRIENDSHIP BAG?!?! Hahaha!), maong shorts, a blouse and an effin cheap headband. I must redeem myself and shop more next time. *sigh* Pressure much?

YOU MUST BE ALREADY TIRED OF MY FACE. I’m sorry.:< I’m not in the mood to write at all lately. I’m already neglecting my Aniblogging duties. I have already finished FMAB and the movie Perfect Blue, but I’m not making ‘em reviews. I’m surreh.:’((