I just received my dream statement T-shirt this week. It suits me fine, because I tweet way more than I should and I am, by default, a very bitter person. The best part is that I got it for a very gloriously cheap price, but the material’s pretty good.:) It’s disappointing that I wasn’t able to wear it on Valentines Day though. I bought it in hopes that I can walk around the fair looking glum with the word “bitter” on my shirt.

Anyway, hi.:) I’m Clarice, and I have achieved the eternal online status on Facebook from after suppertime to the next day’s breakfast for almost a week. My eye bags are layered now. I curse at a rate of more than 1 swear word per 10 minutes. I glare daggers at space. I haven’t been getting much sleep due to dreadful deadlines, but it can’t be helped. I need to graduate. I have to. I WILL GRADUATE. Please. I have to pass everything, and that includes this subject I have previously failed. I won’t be able to live with myself if I fail it for a second time. I will definitely change again. I will be more pessimistic and gloomier, with no confidence at oneself anymore.

On one of those nights mornings I have been working on a deadline, my older sister chatted me up and implied that I keep cursing again at my FB statuses. Upon reflecting (that moment when your brain cells don’t work anymore thus you randomly decide to reflect on you personal well-being, morality and spirituality), I realized that I really changed. I’m only happy when I’m at home, indulging in my animu and manga. I stare listlessly at my teachers when they talk; I look at my grades as if I just saw poop. I have thoughts of comically making our department explode since I realized that I don’t even like Chemical Engineering, and that I don’t want to meddle with it again. Nevertheless, it’s too late, right? I can’t just shift. I try to think of it as having this hate because of teachers (LOL. Not really plural.), and that when I enter the industry, I’ll find it enticing and interesting, something that I would like to deal with with the rest of my life.

Such negativism in me must have stemmed from me losing a lot of things upon failing a subject last semester. I lost my BPI-DOST Nomination (apparently worth 25000 Php asdsafkdjfkjdlfajl;;), my cum laude standing, and a possible honor award from DOST. I used to be in the top 5 in my department, but now who knows in which pigsty I will be picked up from. And now I have practically lost my cheerful side. It only comes out when I go out with my high school clique, but instances like that are seldom. I am no longer confident in anything. I barely make attempts to make new friends, and I no longer choose my words carefully. I no longer care if people get annoyed by my strange mood swings. I became more indifferent to others. Maybe that’s the difference between me then and now. Why I was able to have admirers back then but not now. The only thing saving me now from the fiery pits of hell is the Shulammite Carrot Soap, which makes my skin appear fairer than usual. But guess what? Maybe I can still graduate as a cum laude if, and only if, I get a GWA of 1.6something. Sadly, I’ve never had that kind of grade until I reached my sophomore year.

I hate it when I blog about my academics. Everthing’s just gloomy, ayt? AYT?!

I’m kind of obsessive compulsive if it’s about my online accounts, which basically explains why I raged on the conversion of my webcard hosted by card.ly into businesscard2. I’ve been thinking of making a post here on Tumblr to list all my online accounts, and I will finally do it now since I need something to take my mind off what happened today. So, tada! Here are my profiles on the sites I somewhat (?) maintain after the Read More link.

If you want to add me a contact or something, then do so.:) (*please do please do please do, hehehe!) This makes stalking me sooooo much easier. Hahaha! And just so this post will be fun, I present thee a random comic I picked up from the intarwebs.

Personal:

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LIFE UPDATE—that is, if I do have a life.

Online Life

I got myself into another famous social networking site—Twitter. I already posted about it a while ago. There’s one thing I can say about it: it is addicting. I only have 9 followers and I’m tweeting like crazy.>:D I was also being stupid by worrying that I’m spamming my followers with all my replies, then realizing a few hours later that they aren’t. Oh well.

I also made a Skype account. If you want to add me or something, you can just PM me. I’m looking for other contacts since I have… like… 2 contacts there. Haha!:)) They’re my purdnerrs in crime: zhokolatte and catacataca. We had a Pimpin’ Shizzaya conference call. Twas fun!♥ Though I really did not help much at all, LOL. Check out our new layout!=P

I also got caught up in another blogging extravaganza, The Dere-Moe Project. Plz visit it!:) I haven’t made any posts yet, since I’m still hyping myself up. After all, the other writers are really great. I feel honored to be invited.(;_;) It’s an anime blogging project by Filipinos.:3

Anime Life

Meanwhile, my FMA (1st animated series) goal of finishing it last night did not succeed since it was already freaking 3AM in the morning and I still had three episodes to watch.:’( My deadline is moved to this night, then tomorrow, I shall watch the Conqueror of Shambala movie since a batchmate told me that it serves as the first series’ ending.XD

Night Life

Night Life =  sleeping. Hohoho! I couldn’t even leave the house during the day, can you expect me to go have night gimmicks?XD 

Anyway, there’s a reason why I put this here. Haha. I suddenly remembered that last night, I dreamt about alchemy. WTFBBQ. TOO MUCH WATCHING FMA CLACLA!:)) Hahaha. I dreamt that I was with my sister, and this group of people was making us go into a large circle on the floor so they could sacrifice us. Huhlolz. The almost got what they wanted.(;_;) One guy did that clapping motion Ed always does and the other people vanished, but we were able to escape. So much for a dream. Haha. My sister said she dreamt about Elfen Lied. And. That. It. Was. Morbid.

Social Life

Today, the only people I had real life contact with besides from my family was with a brod and his dog. Yes, I consider his dog classified under “people.” Haha.

My friend was bugging me to fulfill my promise of losing weight by jogging, buuuut… it’s so hawt. I don’t likey.:| I also don’t want to jog alone.(T_T) Maybe tomorrow I’ll go jogging for real. Damn I NEED to lose weight and all these flabs!

I also made plans to go out on Friday and meet other human species.

In conclusion, I APPARENTLY HAVE NO LIFE. Thank you. Bow.

About the image: Taken long ago, grabbed a few hours ago, and edited with a program I know many would be able to guess.