I’ve been actually waiting to have the two first pictures before I blog again. These are pictures with my bound plant design and thesis manuscripts, my keys to graduation.:”> Now that they are already in their bound forms and can no longer do me harm, expect more entries from me. Yey! Or maybe not. You’re probably sick of me posting pictures if myself but I can’t help it, this is what happens when I haven’t blogged in a while.:< The third one is an edited picture of me during my thesis defense. I’ve been planning on dyeing my hair red for graduation and for my creative shot, since I want to cosplay in it. Unfortunately, I still have no solid plans for my photoshoot and everyone is planning to have it next week. *gasp* What about my dreams? The last one is a fat me in our Induction party, my last party in EngSoc as a resident member. To make a long story short, I’m kind of sorry that I didn’t even get to know everyone properly before I graduate. I blame this on the construction of the canteen (which isn’t even finished until now!) since we didn’t have a tambayan for a whole semester. Thinking about all the possible bonding makes me angry and lonely at the same time. I wish I got drunk at our party.

So I went to this Corregidor field trip today for my History II class and verified my very law-abiding persona.

Will blog about three entries later to make up for my very long absence in Tumblr. These blog posts will NOT feature my thesis even though lately, my whole life has been centered on it. There are some things I really don’t like talking about, and it ranks very high on my list. Anyway, I also still have to force my friend Lara (@justsomerandomstranger) to post the pictures from our friend’s prebirthday celebration before I start blogging. I also just updated my About Me page. 

Hi there. My life is in shambles right now. Instead of the usual lonely worry that I’ve had ever since this year started, I now have guilt to accompany it. I’d rather not talk about it so publicly here, but let’s just say I lied. That’s why I can’t enjoy my new 4 tops, 2 pairs of shoes (my dream pair of shoes included), 1 pair of comfy shorts and 1 belt to the maximum. My academic life is also taking a turn for the worse as my thesis plans (which I spent a lot of time on) are not going well at all. I’m at the verge of believing that I may not graduate on time, and I fervently wish that it won’t be true. Guess what? We have a progress report presentation and Monday—but I don’t have any progress at all. Add in my fear my adviser hates/is disappointed with me and everything’s just dandy. 

However, since I keep on writing notes to myself which urge me to keep on smiling, I guess I’ll have a rundown of stuff to be happy for in a lame attempt to comfort myself:

1. Well, I did get to buy my dream shoes: high-heeled royal blue pumps.
2. For all the things I bought today, I only spent a little above 2000Php!:”>
3. I can sleep tomorrow morning and think about my presentation in the afternoon.
4. Our seminar last Friday (Friday the 13th!) was really awesome! 
5. My favorite lipstick is still alive.
6. Danshi Koukousei no Nichijou is really funny. Now I have a new anime to add in my watchlist (number of anime currently in my watchlist now= 3). Yey! 
7. Lastly, my soap’s brand is Schulamite. It sounds like chulamite. Maybe I can get a chula if I keep on using it. (chula = gay lingo for someone you flirt with or is in a relationship with)

Small things, but hey. I’m happy in this picture because my niece’s bike (?) amazes me. I say “amazes” but I really want it for my own. lololol

Unpopular opinion 1: Tuesdays with Morrie is such a boring read. Oh fans don’t kill me. I just remembered this when I was browsing Tumblr. It was a pain to finish the book, and no, I didn’t finish ze book: I’m not that tolerant to pain. I stopped reading when there were just about of couple of chapters (I have this habit of dropping stuff when I’m almost done, i.e. Boys Over Flowers and My Precious Lady). Sure, lots of wisdom and blahblah embedded, but I just didn’t care anymore. 

And I just made up that lame post title because my mind is not working and I don’t care anymore. In fact, I’m only blogging now because I don’t want to start working on the PowerPoint presentation which I have to present tomorrow at 8AM. How I wish that when I don’t care anymore that certain object/phenomena would just disappear! I wish that I could have a real vacation from everything: from my thesis, from org work, from that BPI-DOST Award application and from my stressful academic worries. I’m fine with household chores but please I want to stay home.(T__T ) I want to roll around in my bed until two in the afternoon. I’m fine with being bored to death. *sigh*  Looking at the bright side, at least being at Biotech almost everyday is paying off since my thesis experiments are already progressing, but that BPI-DOST thingy keeps me off the edge. I already failed a subject last semester. My GWA for last semester (ignoring PI100) is a shining shimmering 2.875. Surely they’ll drop me off the competition, right? They won’t even consider me for the university level so do I really have to face a panel of judges (scary) tomorrow at 8AM? Can I just wake up early to head off to Biotech first thing in the morning? At least I know my time will be useful there. I crey buckets of tears. I shed gallons of laziness.

By the way, look at this photo properly. My spirit is flyiiiiing awaaaaay.

It’s quite ominous. When this picture was taken I have no idea that I would fail. It’s like preempting that I would soon get my spirit whacked out of me hard. Very hard. 

I wish we had puppies so I could mass produce GIFs of them.

EDIT: 2400th post.♥ And this is totally unrelated but I’m following Mawaru Penguindrum and Kimi to Boku. Mawaru Penguindrum is BRILLIANT. Kimi to Boku, though boring (and isuspishus) in a way, is kind of relaxing for me.:)

I haven’t posted again in days. But I’m bored, so I will do so today. To prove that I really am bored, I started playing It Girl a few hours ago because of the notion that it’s easy to acquire boyfriends there. I am somebody who has already lived 7,475 boyfriendless days and cold nights, so even if my reason is too stupid to be true, I simply gave in. BUT OH NO DEAR LORD, IT’S ALSO HARD TO GET A BOYFRIEND THERE. To be able to flirt with these gorjus digital males, I must have four people in my clique. I don’t really want to bug all of my friends by sending them It Girl invites.(=.= ) Honestly, I’m bugged more by the fact that I can’t even shop in the other stores.

About five minutes ago, as I was typing this, I received the biggest heartbreak of my summer. It looks like we won’t be able to get free enzyme samples from this company that we had been trying to contact the whole summer. I wished they said so earlier, so that we could have searched for other options way before. And there goes my whole summer vacation, wasted. My projected schedule for my thesis is severely delayed. A few weeks from now school is back. I’m doomed.

And my org duties are still neglected.

And our fucking internet cannot work properly even for several minutes.

And my skin is so fucked up. (I decided last night that I’ll sleep as early as 12MN every night.)

And the weather is so freaking… sticky.

And I’m already getting impatient. Waiting. I’ve been waiting for too long.

But basically I’m really pissed because my thesis experimentation has been delayed for months, and what do we have here? I wonder how much those fucking enzymes cost. I don’t even have money to buy ‘em.

I’m doomed. This moment deserves to be linked to THIS SITE.

Oh, and that I can’t even shop at new shops in It Girl. Might as well add that here.