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CONFESSION TIME!:)
Ever since I have indulged myself in anime and manga, I’ve had this wish that the Japanese custom of giving honmei chocolates on Valentines day is also done in my home country. It’s different because the chocolates are given by the girls, not the guys, and are more or less homemade (those who aren’t gifted in cooking will surrender and buy chocolates from stores, according to my expertise in anime and manga hoho >:D But, also according to my fabulousmax expertise in manga and anime, the girls at least try to make homemade ones before surrendering =P). The guys will have the chance to reciprocate the gifts a month later, on March 14, also known as the White Day. This concept of giving the girls freedom to confess… I love it! I’ve always wanted that freedom. However, the society I live in has decided that males have the right to woo whom they like and the girls are only left with the choice to accept the confession or not. If the girls, perchance, make obvious attempts in flirting with guys, then they are labelled as sluts. I’m not innocent in the labeling part though, I am part of society, and maybe I’m just bitter because they have the guts and the confidence to do so.
I also want the experience of making homemade chocolates for someone I like albeit my obvious lack of cooking skills, but I always wonder what it feels to make something for someone you love, guessing wildly if he’ll even taste it or chuck it away or donate it to the needy masses. The thrill emanating with worry will surely be priceless. You know what? I also approve of how confessions are made in Japan. Both genders can do it and there’s no need to be flashy—sincere emotions are all that is needed. The gender equality part is important. (I am such a hypocrite sometimes. I try to change.)
The song is A Thousand Years by Christina Perri, and honestly has no connection to my confession. I just love the song.♥ But I do feel as if I’ve already waited a thousand years.
It has been indeed a lonely month for my main Tumblr. Look at the image below and you will see that for the month of February,

I only have one post. ONE SINGLE POST, AND IT’S ABOUT MY FRUSTRATIONS IN LOVE. And I thought January was bad with only 10 posts. Anyway, I have several reasons why I had my unplanned hiatus:
- Cheering practice, which is actually my major reason among all major reasons. I shall post an entry about this later. Be prepared for my glee.:3
- Acads. NAH. Not really—no, not at all. Hahaha!
- Laziness. I admit most of the time I just want to lurk around the site, looking for stuff to like. Or, if I really have no time, I just click my search tags on the right. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out why most of my recently liked posts are about Gintama.
- FebFair. It’s the first time that I got to spend all nights of the said week in the fair. I was actually planning to write a post about it, keeping in mind that I will after I grab some pictures from other people, but I guess… laziness happened. So just for some *sympathy* for the me who initially wanted to post some pictures, here are some where I look kind of wasted. (But I’m not! Really! Allergy guise, allergy.)

*with some orgmates/sisses. Yes, all of us are sisses.;)

*with Mau!♥ This was supposed to be somewhat a KiChaps bonding moment, but some people went home earlier than planned.:<

*with a sis. She’s going to kill me if she finds out I posted this pic.>:D

*with Tols. This must be our first picture where we are complete after a really long time. You know… stuff happened, like relationships and cheering!

*with sisses, presenting our second Valentines surprise to our brods. Hehe. Our surprises this year were kind of cute. Our first surprise to the brods consisted of giving them paper roses and messages at the booth. The brods’s surprise were giving heart-shaped balloons, ice cream and those gooey pick up lines. Let me give you a hint though, those are not the ONLY things given away.;) HAHAHA. Our second surprise was drawing them caricatures and letting them guess who the person is. Lipstick marks on the cheeks were also given. Hehe. My sisses are so talented, really. I envy them, the caricatures were really good.:’<
That week’s events. (Itchyworms, Radioactive Sago Project and Sugarfree!)
This will be a lovey-dovey post.

Or not. This will just contain the angst and woes of a teenager WTF-I’m-not-a-teenager-anymore who has no experience in love. And since I love thee Sailormoon screen caps randomly picked from Tumblr, I shall use them to convey my true feelings!
So Valentines (or Balentayms, as I would usually pronounce) is around to corner again. Yey. It is the pinnacle of awareness, the season where people who feel lonely will feel more lonely, thanks to those people who cannot help but show how much they ~*LoVe*~ or ~*WaNt T0 eAt*~ each other. Thankfully, the said event will be on Monday, so rest assured I will just stay away from those creatures and live a happy secluded life.
I suddenly remember how some people would surmise that I have a boyfriend, or at least had one, and I always wished they were right. My case is exactly the opposite of this:

Yada yada yada. This screen cap is pretty accurate for me though:

I was reminded of this when I was measured for our cheering costume. Boobs are overrated, imho.(≖__≖) The flapper era should resume soon. Really.
Messages to some people:
- You, don’t just say it. Prove it.
- You, don’t just do it, say it.
Seriously you two complement each other, what one lacks, the other has! Go date each other or something.( >_>) Haven’t you heard of the quote that “Words without actions are meaningless and actions without words are confusing?” I’M A GIRL, for Christ’s sake. I don’t do the wooing part. I don’t, and I won’t. I know, it’s stereotyping and feminists are probably going to kill me, but it’s not in my personality. I don’t flirt if I’m serious. I only flirt at parties, with random people I probably won’t meet again forever. If this keeps up, nothing’s going to happen. All this asdfghjkl;; moments make me want to feel indifferent. It’s incomprehensible that I have this lack of leveling up events but has tons of potential to push them. I dream of having an occupied Valentines day too, how desperate that may sound. But don’t you get it?

HAHA. The way things are currently going, which is exactly the same way my whole life has been going, looks like I would still be dreaming… sleeping on Monday.
ohmygahd, what is this? Picnik.com is already featuring Valentines Day effects? it’s only january 30 and there are already signs of the approaching Valentines Day? and just a few hours ago, i saw this politician’s poster that has the unsightly words “Happy Valentines Day!” on it. merde! what is this world coming to? ಠ_ಠ instead of allotting money to improve schools, or donating it to needy people, they use it to greet Happy Valentines Day?!?! what the fuck? that day isn’t even worth remembering.
Valentines Day… you mean Singles Awareness Day? you mean our Bitter Squad’s Anniversary? (this year will be our 4th anniv.XD) oops, i meant Boy Scouts. we changed our name, i almost forgot. HAHA. but honestly, the Bitter Squad’s already disintegrating. some of the members are not “bitter” anymore, and our prez is kind of MIA. hehe. we are looking for new members though. just submit us your resume with a one-paragraph explanation why you are one of us and is a certified bitter gourd person.
also take note that people who are in lovey-dovey relationships, or in any form of a romantic relationship, cannot be part of our prestigious and awesomest club. thank you.:]

![ohmygahd, what is this? Picnik.com is already featuring Valentines Day effects? it’s only january 30 and there are already signs of the approaching Valentines Day? and just a few hours ago, i saw this politician’s poster that has the unsightly words “Happy Valentines Day!” on it. merde! what is this world coming to? ಠ_ಠ instead of allotting money to improve schools, or donating it to needy people, they use it to greet Happy Valentines Day?!?! what the fuck? that day isn’t even worth remembering.
Valentines Day… you mean Singles Awareness Day? you mean our Bitter Squad’s Anniversary? (this year will be our 4th anniv.XD) oops, i meant Boy Scouts. we changed our name, i almost forgot. HAHA. but honestly, the Bitter Squad’s already disintegrating. some of the members are not “bitter” anymore, and our prez is kind of MIA. hehe. we are looking for new members though. just submit us your resume with a one-paragraph explanation why you are one of us and is a certified bitter gourd person.
also take note that people who are in lovey-dovey relationships, or in any form of a romantic relationship, cannot be part of our prestigious and awesomest club. thank you.:]](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kx1wo8bjML1qzh2l3o1_500.jpg)
